Back to start.

Seeing someone for the first time in my life.
I feel the ground I walk on disappear.
Feeling it so sudden is something I fear,
It feels like I'm taking a very deep dive.

What is happening? What is this?
My stomage feels teased,
It's like it's being squeezed.
What just happened? What did I miss?

This has never happened before.
Immediately falling in love,
got struck by lightening from up above.
But it happened when he walked throug my door.

This phenomenon called Love at first sight,
Has hit me very hard.
And inside I slowely fall apart.'
And I know..."It is SO not right".

This man will never be within my reach.
He's married and has his life.
For years now, married to his wife.
The wind goes throug my hair while walking on the beach.

Why did this  happen to me?
Why must I feel this way?
I have to live with this feeling day by day,
When will I ever be free?

It hurts so much. It hurts like hell.
I'm so dizzy in my head,
Can't sleep and toss and turn in my bed.
I just wish I could crawl somewhere in a shell.

Just when I was moving on to a better life
I got thrown of my pedestal
I find myself in a freefall.
And this really hurts like a knife.

Back to start.
Back to where I've been.
Years of fighting for nothing it seems.
I hope this time I won't fall apart.